From Now On

Patterns. They surround us and at times dictate how we live our lives. And sometimes they are the hardest things to change and break. We grow up learning patterns from our families, from society and from our fears. These patterns are the boxes and routines that we hold ourselves up in. It becomes our safe space and we begin to believe that these patterns are important to our survival.

It’s important to look at the patterns in your life and become aware of what patterns have been detrimental to your growth and happiness. Patterns can show up in different forms. They can be coping mechanisms, thought processes, fear tactics, inner-dialogue and belief systems. Take a look back on a difficult situation that you recently encountered, did you navigate it through a pattern? Many times we don’t realize a pattern is present until we detach from our ego and emotions.

What unhealthy patterns are playing out in your life?

In my own personal life I have noticed patterns that were hindering me from growth and moving forward. I have a pattern of putting myself down, self-sabotaging and being highly-critical of myself when I encounter difficult situations. It was as if this pattern was telling me that in the face of negativity, I didn’t have the tools to succeed. Obviously, looking back upon those circumstances I understand that I always had the ability to break that pattern but something within me clung to it because it felt safe for that time in my life. As my life has changed and I have evolved, this pattern needed to be broken. It served it’s purpose but it’s toxicity had no place in my life.

Sometimes patterns can be negative and put into our lives so that we have “eye-opening” experiences that show us how unrealistic these patterns really are. On a super spiritual note, angelic numbers helped me become aware of the patterns and taught me to move forward fearlessly. As I began to awaken and become aware of my journey, I began seeing 9:11 everywhere. At first it was extremely alarming, but as I began to research the meaning behind these numbers I began to look at things very differently. I began to understand that these numbers were giving me a wake-up call that a new chapter was about to begin for me, but the crucial element to get there was in regards to my inner work and letting go of unhealthy patterns.

I began to understand that there were many patterns playing out in my life that needed to be addressed and healed so that I could move on with my life. A lot of these patterns were mental and emotional. Taking the time to sit down and come face to face with those patterns can be painful and tough to grasp. I’m not saying that this is an easy and fluid process, but the end results are worth it. I had to take time to sit down and look at situations and decisions from an outsider’s perspective. It was important for me to be extremely honest and transparent with myself.

It all comes down to facing the darkness that resides within us. It’s about looking that darkness in the face and honoring it for the purpose it serves. The darkness is nothing more than an aspect of us that no longer belongs in our lives. Once you see it for what it is, it loses its power over you. The freedom and self-love that you will feel after being honest with yourself is worth it all.